he doesnt understand me..

haiz,i now staying with my daddy.. i really feel very happy but i've another feeling that i dun dare to tell him.. i dun wan him to be sad bcoz of me.. whenever he & my step-mother laughing and smilling at one another, i feel really very extra in the family.. but i could not understand why i cant treat her as my "mother".. she really treat me very good but i treat that she just trying to get close to me and take away my mom position in my dad heart.. until now i still could not accept the fact that she is my step-mother.. whenever i step into my dad room i saw their pic hanging on the wall that make me drop tears.. but i still smiling just to make my dad happy.. i hate that every where i go i saw her pic.. in my dad room, in my dad hp & also in my dad laptop.. i gonna gone crazy very soon.. he give me everything that i wan but all that have no meaning without his love.. she broke my dream.. dad, u broke my heart..

feeling really very lonely without u..
wishing u will stay by my side forever..
if i know this day will come i'll treasure
every moment that i spent with u.. time spent
with u really very short but mostly i take a fight
with u and did not leave u any sweet memmories.. but
the act that i really love u alots.. i really dun wish to
see this.. i wanna go back school.. because i wan to see u..
u're my wonderful world.. please dun ever leave me.. please!!!
i really feel very lost now.. wishing to u see every second, hope
u have not forget me.. there is nothing more important than ur love
in my life.. every night i cry because of u.. i keep on thinking of u
non-stop.. dun u get tired of running around my mind?!?! tired of missing u