bad luck

what the hell......... my auntie has come to Sing... she come for wad?! she come here to take care for us.. but she keep on sleep... she sleep lyk pig lyk that.. i every time 3 to 4 plus then sleep. she 9 plus called us to sleep siao. damn her. she everyday nag nag lyk hell lor and she is damn stingy lor. gives her $300 per 2 weeks to buy food for us she everyting dun wan las. wasted money this food viet nam have alot. AIYO!!!!! hate her damn lot sia

wad on my mind?!

i promised myself i will hate u to the core but i cant. i promised myself i dont ever wan to see u again but i missed u badly. maybe 7 months is not short. it not short at all. if i dun take this realationship seriously, it would end within 7 days and not 7 months. I will win back your heart no matter wad. u are the 1st 1 and the only 1 who wasted my tears. I also dunno y i was so hurt when i see the word break up u sent me in the MSN and its the day i noe how much i love you. i would take this relationshipas a nightmare. i noe u really disappointed in me. may be it my fault for being too unreasonable and stubborn to make u leave me.

story of my life.

My mommy and my daddy married since 1994. Few month later, my mommy was carry a baby, its me.. Month and month passed, finally come to the day i going to born. I was born in the 28th of November 1995. I can felt that i was born in a special and happy family that no one could have. Time had passed, people had changes. My daddy does not love my mommy and me any more. So, the terrible day coming to a young girl life. My parent decided to divorce in 1997. I was followed my mommy. She put all the blames on me. She said daddy left us because he dislike me. from that day onward she always give me a cold shoulder and always ignore me. About three months passed, she finally remarried a man which really love and willing to accept her daughter. She still not happy with the man she live with because he was not rich as my daddy. Once again, my mom divorce. My mom then leave me to my grand-mother to take care for me and she went to Singapore to find a better life for my grand-mother.When i was about 7 years and 4 months old i was in a relationship with a boy named Andy. I met him during the end of my ballet lesson and then he was same class with me during the next lesson, cheer leading. Cheer leading was 3 time per week. He was a Singaporean, and its not the 1st time visited my country (Viet Nam). Whenever i free, we going out together. Know what?! Andy everyday gives me one tiny teddy bear that he wasted a lot of money in the Your Beloved Teddy Bear machine. He also promised me to built me a house that filled with teddy bear. One time, i was bring my best friend, Lyn along to meet Andy. Another sad day coming to my life, Andy say he now in love with me best friend, Lyn. The next day, Lyn come and look for me and say she love Andy. What the hell, by that time i dunno wad to do. So, Andy and i break up. I was feel like so funny because i realise that i not love Andy at all in the first place. Lucky this time round i never hurt him. After break up, i followed my mom to Singapore for further study because she said here have more educate. Listen to her i go Singapore when i complete my primary 3. Before living my be love Nguyen Viet Hong primary school, me and my friends in school fight with those primary 5 students. They think they is what, block other person ways. they blocking my friends and go bang into me. Damn idiot sia and fucking bitch. They scolded us with alot of means word. then i take the Mathematics text book throw at her and give her a slap. She said she want to complain with my form teacher. i said, "Go ahead then, anyway today is my last day in school. LOL" So i went to Singapore the following week. Haha finally i in Singapore. I went to Singapore in the years of 2004. I schooling at parkway parade for two months. The teacher tell me to take exam go to Tanjong Katong Primary School. Finally i passed, is that a good news?! So, 2005 i started the lesson. I was in primary 2 Benevolence. There is one girl also fatherless like me want to make friend with me. So, that day onward she is my best friend. The girl named is Manting. We both bad in English and good in Mathematics. when i primary 3, guess what class am i in?? Yo, i in 3 Diligence. Hehe. I was sitting beside a boy named Jeremy. What the hell, i in love with him. I like him damn lot sia. Until primary 5, the most interesting years. A boy named Manson. He say he like me, haha damn funny lor. But Manting like him. Shit, what should i do?! I lies to him that i like him sia. Then, that time in school he touch my hand i slap him. He asked my why am i i being so fears. Too bad, God born me to be like this. ^^ Days has passed, God bless me. They finally be together, haha. You should thanks me man. But not long later, Manson must go back to Taiwan. They 2 become enemy. End of the years 23/11 Jeremy want to be my boy friend. I immediately agree to it. Not wasted time and effort. Until the day you wanted to break up is exactly 7 months that we have been together. I know i always the person make you upset :( am i rite?! Sorry for that. I know a word sorry can not cure any things. I willing to do whatever things to make you happy.

thanks

Any ways i should thank you. Thanks for the time that you give me. Even though it was short but i always can felt that at least there was a person always there for me. Willing to make me laugh whenever i have family problem or whenever i sad. The time spent with you, i really very happy. Even that not last for long. If i do not love you, i would not keep this relationship last until now. It have been more than seven months that we have been together. This seven months, i felt like there is a angle beside me,it is you. No mater what i would not let this relationship end. Life aways chances. Hoping that i still have a chance. Just want you to remember one thing, no mater what there still have one person always supporting you, care for you, need you and even love you more than her life. The person always waiting for you and her love to you will never changes. I do not want to end this relationship because i do not want to lose another half piece of my heart and the true love + the feeling that i give you. LOVE YOU DAM LOT Truely, thanh2

why?

suddenly after the day i break up with you i felt that the night become longer. 1 night seem like 1 month.. can anyone tell me the reason why the night it seem so long to me??? you come to me and say u love me and against 1 more time u come to me u say u wanna break up... then wad the reason u bright up my life for wad??? u saved me out of the nightmare and throw me back to the even worst than the nightmare that i have u make my life have no way to turn back.. sometimes i asked myself, wad did i have in this world??? and who really understand me??? all tis question when then i can get the answer?? can anyone tell me why my mind always full of question.. and all this question always no answere..

promise

can you give me one reason why u want to break up? and what is the reason that make u to break ur promise that u has promised me... can u please tell me that wad have i done??? i swear i iwill changes... my heart really cant accept this scariest fear of my life u promised me that u will take care for me forever but nw wad happen??? if u really wanna break up then y dun u juz kill me coz u are my world my whole family alredy dun wan me... i continue to live in this world juz bcoz of u.. nw the road that i walk was so dark and so cold.. i really feel lyk there is something in my life already missing... u promise me u will b there for me but where r u nw by the time i really need u dear y u wan to do this to me??? yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy???

father day

every1 hope that can go out or stay wif ur daddy during the father day, am i rite? but it difference from me. i celebrate father dae wif my cousin.. bcoz her father juz die and my father is not here, both of us feel very sad. i dunno wether my daddy can understand it?

sad things?

wad the hell u ask me y i nv online but todae i online the whole dae but u nv online so sad actually i wanna call u but scare disturb u. sometime i call u nv ans make me worry dam lot but who understand for me?? wad the hell is this stupid fucking world...

blog update ^^

yo everyone, it has been more than 2 week i haven update my blog sia.. today i update the blog but nth to write sia..

The Answer

u asked me wad i wan to make me work hard Mom, all i wan is u gif me some freedom and dun ever stop me from loving some1.. and i wan to b lyk other child, have parent by my side love and care for me. can you pls ask urself u got bring me to school or fetch me after school b4.. nv, not even once... whenever i look at other child, most of them have parent bring and fetch them!!! i noe u work very hard but i dun wan so much money all i wan is u be there for me.. i dun have father and u always oversea, today is the 588 days that you have been in America.. Is money was that importance?! i have enough of the loneliness..

To My Dear

i really dunno wad to say but 1 thing i wan to let u noe is i miss you a lot dear i have been thinking of you day and night.. hope that our relationship will last forever.. i missed ur voice ur smile... NTH I COULD SAY ACCEPT FOR 3 WORDS 'LOVE YOU FOREVER' dear, thanks for wad u have done to me but i have done back nth for you i really sorry and hope that i can continue to be with you.. wadeva i say nw is a bit too late i really hope that the time turn back i will give you my biggest smile, a biggest hug with a biggest kiss... no matter where i am my heart always belong to YOU