I did not cry

How many night must I have to count, how many torturing I must go through?! Then you can truly understand me. But I have never ever give up on you & I did not cry, it look like I was crying, I am not it just some dust go into my eyes. I am waiting for you, waiting for you footstep. I am running a way from you because I totally don't know how to face you.

How many sentences must I pray, how many pain god want to torture me?! Then we can be together again. I noe miss you a lot, it's only the 1st day we break up, but it like killing me inside. It's not your fault, but it's my fault. it's my fault that I don't know how to hold you tight & let you slip out of my hand. Waving good bye to you, because I must lead my life without you.

Silently looking at your footstep, and walk past you without saying a word but tears start to rolling down my eyes. I did not cry. There really dust inside my eyes that make my tears keep on roll down. But since I decide to let you go, i hope you to be happy no matter what, please promised me to stay happy my baby.

Please remember that, no matter where you go. At the end of this world there is somebody waiting for you. Forever waiting for you down here, because she really love you a lot.

Love ya baby!!!

If the word "IF" doesn't exist...

By all the lonely time I've spent by myself, by all the painful heartbeat, when you leave me without a word. Why must you leave so many painful memmories in my life. Did you remember anything?! When I'm sad, your heart & soul does not happy either. Remember when you hug me & said: I can't go on without you & I can't live without you. Those words had mixed with the rain & had already vanished into the air. I want to forget those momment but I still think of it. Do you know my heart has already broken? Those memmories will follow the rain & dissapear.

If I've not meet you, i think my life is difference now. I won't be so heartbroken, i won't be so sad & crying every night. Just because I was naive & take your words so seriously, then my life won't be so tough. If you don't bring any suffer to me, my life would be difference now. I would be a happy girl & I'll love you a lots also. If there's trust in love, there is no point of continue to be together. If you really love me, love me for who I am not for who you want me to be. If we really mean to be together, let time prove to us. If the word "IF" does not exist, I think no one will be so pianful & sad.

Story of a girl who missing a guy every night. Story of a girl who crying for a guy every night. Thinking of those memmories that they had shared. And now left her alone in the dark, lonely night by herself. Scared to love you again because i scared to get hurt again. The pain you had given me forever will still remain. If I doesn't meet you & if I doesn't love you, i won't be suffer.

Mothers' day

Haiz, today is Mothers' Day, feel so boring sia..
I miss my mother a lots lor, hope she can come
back for few days... Long time never see her le..
Wonder how her life is going on.. Hope everything
will go well for her.. I think most of you very
eager to celebrate Mothers' Day with your mother,
I also wanted to celebrate this special day belong
to every single Mother in this world.. But she is
not here with me to celebrate this special day, so
another year I've to celebrate Mothers' Day by
myself... So sad sia, :(

Mommy! HaPpY m0tHeRs' DaY, all the best in every
things you do. m0mMy, I ♥ YOU!!! My best mommy
ever. The mommy that all years been taking care for
me. You have being my mother, the best mother ever,
you also have been my father when he is not around,
to protect me and always make sure that i live safe
everyday. You also have been my friend whenever i
feeling lonely, and even share your sadness and your
happiness with me everyday.

YoU aRe ThE bEsT m0mMy EvEr

another sleepless nite, thinking of u...
miss u a lot, more than i expected... i
really miss ur voice, ur laughter & ur
smile... i really wanna call u but i dun
wanna disturb u anymore... NVR EVER AGAIN
i'll try my best nt to call u again anymore
i really hate myself for loving u too deep
u evertime wanna hang up my call & nvr ans
my call... u let me spent the scary nite by
myself, the nite tat is so dark, long & it
is filled with lonely tears... i really feel
lyk i'm juz a fren tat u seem lyk dun care
or maybe worst tat i'm nth in ur heart...
i swear to myself tat i wun cry for any more
guy but i couldn't control... when then u
wake up & realised how much i've been love
you tis few mths? i think when u realised it,
it's really time for me to leave u... i cant
take anymore suffer... i was still awake & was
thinking of u while u were in ur dreamland...
u let me suffer in thee dark & lonely nite by
myself... tat's how u show ur love to me?!

If I got a chance to go back in time to change
one thing you know what I would change? Nothing
cause it's the mistakes and pain of my past that
could make me a stronger person.