letter to some1

To my love,

I really don't know what to say or do to make you turn back to my life. Like the first time you asked to stead me. I know you need to concentrate on your study now, so I will wait for you. Days had been passed, my love to you still there and it will never change. All I could say is I love you deeper and even deeper when the next day come. I will never ever forget you in my life. I will cut myself whenever i start to think about you. I rather suffering all the pain on my hand than keep it inside my heart. I will promised you that I will not disturb your life any more. I will love and care for you silently. I hate and angry myself, why should I love you so much. I will started to cry whenever I saw you walking along the corridor. I really could not control my tears from rolling down my cheek. I will cry until the day that I could totally forget you. Hope that one day I could forget you and the day will come soon. All I want to do now is knock my head onto the wall and forget every things when i woke up. I think that is the fastest way that i could forget you. You are the first boy that could wasted my tears. I really missed your smile and your voice. There is no word to describe my love to you. I will try my very best to let you go and never ever think of you again. I think I could not do that because I still deeply in love with you and hoping that one day you will come back to my side. Can you please stop ignoring me and treat me as your friend?! You are the only person that I could trust and depend on. You are the one who saved me out of the terrible nightmare and the one bright up my life. I don't care what happen in this world or around me. I only wanted to care for you. I really need you to stay by my side, care for me and be there for me whenever I need you. I really wanted to hold you tightly in my arm. Sorry that my action is pushing you away from me. Please come back to my life. How I wish I could exchange my heart with you. To let you know how much I have been love you, need you and care for you. No one could truly understand my pain and suffering deeply inside my heart. When I know that you going to leave me for one reason. My heart feel very pain and then I know my heart going to broke into pieces. I know it all my fault. I don't understand why you could not forgive me and give me another chance. I know you don't want this to happen at all. You are felling equally sad as how I do, am I right? May be I don't really understand what exactly inside your mind. But I will never give up on you and I will support you. I really hope that you can win your new crush heart. I think break up is the best way out for both of us. So that you could find your true happiness. Love is all around you, try to receive it because when it go you will never ever find it back. I will love you and willing to wait for you forever. Your named will stayed deeply inside my heart and it will not be erased. Love you a lot.

Yours Regards,

Thanh Thanh

suspend

today norman, joshua and ricky cry juz coz of me, kh n kt make them into trouble... i really sorry... i noe u all dun wanna tell mr chua bout us... how silly are u all... tell mr chua bout us n we will in tis together... me. kt n kh will look for mr chua tml... wanna tell him wad had been happen... i dun mind if i get suspend i rather let mr chua suspend or canning me than all those 6A ppl..

todae i saw him in the sku library...

feel lyk wanna gif him a big hug but

think again im nth to him.. so i must

control myself... lucky juz nw i manage

to control my tears... n stoping the tears

to roll down my cheek... he is the 1st boi

tat make me wasted lot of tears... there

is no word to discript how much i love

him... n the love will forever stay deeply

in my heart... i cut myself to make me

stop thinking bout him n make me wake

up... he is not belong to me lyk the olden

day... cannot forget the time we spent

together...

asking urself

nw then i really noe how selfish is my mother... y she should not let me meet my father once last time... may be it could make me feel better n stop wondering how my daddy look lyk.. i really dun wan to continue to wonder who is my dad any more.. wheneva my fren asked me where is my dad.. wad did u expecting me to ans?? i really hate tis feeling... i jealous of those who have parent stay bside them n tok care for them...i really have nth left in tis world accept for hope.. i still hope tat tis 12 yrs i've not wasting any effort.. i've been waiting for a home sweet home... i dun wan any other to call me fatherless... i really hate to hear it.. my tear is started to rolling down my cheek wheneva i heard some1 called "daddy"... i really wish tat 1 day i could call my dad "daddy"... i juz lyk other gal hoping life will feel with happiness but y my life is oni feel wit sadness... all tis yrs i've been lonely n i really trust oni jeremy... he is the 1 i love the most in tis life... even though i noe tat he will nv belong to me.. my heart is really broken... with a feeling tat cannot be descript... who will noe tis feeling?! accept for jeremy who could i trust?? i really dunno how to face ppl around me... i hate tis fucking world

wad i wan tel u

although i noe tat i vr selfish but i only wan to keep u by my side... nw then noe love a person not mean tat u must b wit him.. so, i will let him go.. let him find his true happiness... if i really love him i will b able to b happy if he is happy... but i will nv gif up on him... i will wait till he really no tat im the oni 1 who really willing to wait for him the rest of my life... juz wanna hear "pls waiting for me"... i'll do it... nw i juz wan him 2 go ahead n walk toward his goals. i will always behind him n support him.. dun listen to wad ppl around u... follow ur heart n do wadeva u wanna do coz life is vr short.. i wan u to be happy n not stay beside me n hate my wit all core... all i wan from u is accept my gift for u n treated me as ur best fren..

if time can turn bk

i promised i will not

be gangster... when

i was young i always

get bullied by those

big size boi & gal.. frm

then onward i tell mysef

not to let any1 bully any

more... nw, no1 dare to

bully me or hurt me.. but

i really regret of wad i doin

no1 can hurt me accept for

him.. is norman they all say

is the true?? it not my fault??

did he really change into

another person?? who can ans

me all tis q? maybe i dun really

understand him all.. if time can

turn bk i will not start tis

relationship coz it really bring both

of us to bcum enemy... i dun believe

tat till nw i still trusted him.. anyway,

i wanna thank norman, joshua, ricky,

kaitng & kahhui... thanks for stop me

from doing stupid ting but it better

than let me continue wit tis pain... i oso

dun understand y god torture me tis way

i really cannot forget all those happy time

& sweet memmorise... i really wanna bang

me head into the wall.. tml wake up forget

bout the pass continue wit my nw life.. ppl

say love is blind & painful but i dun believe

it... nw then i noe it is true, i still thought tat

love always end wit beautiful memmorise..

birthday

yesterday i celebrate my auntie birthday at sakura restaurant.. all the japanese food tat nv cook i dun even dare to touch.. those food look vr disgusting sia.. today, i wanna celebrate my partner birthday with her but i cannot go out.. any way my partner oso cannot go out lyk me.. tml is national day.. how i celebrate national day?? easy, at home doing homework.. ~~~~~sianzz sia~~~~~.. them monday is my friend b'day again.. guess who?? aiyoyo it my sku-mate.. the 1 last year same sku as me but nw went bk taiwan liao.. it manson lor

is tis the fact???

if u does not love me anymore juz leave me alone in the pain by myself.. if u really wanna hurt me by making me fall even more deeply in love with u... if u does not love me anymore juz turn and walked away... i dun wanna make u suffered with me... the fault is mine, mine fault is nv hold u bk when u leave... if u does not love me anymore dun force urslef to be wit me juz leave and i will find some1 else even though they does not love me from the bottom of their heart.. but it better than make u suffering the pain with me... juz let 1 person feel the pain better than both in the pain

wad money can do???

money can buy big house but cannot buy warm family money can buy watch/ clock but it cannot buy the time that had passed money can buy friend but they will not be there for u money can buy ur crushed heart but cannot buy the true love from them money can buy medicine but cannot buy ur health so money is nothing dun work too hard juz becoz u wanted lot of money

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I hate this world. The world that bring me a lot of pain. I really needed counceling to stop me from doing stupid things like killed myself. Whatever Mr. Koh asked are all the good questions. What am I live in this Earth for?? This question I think a lot of people cannot answer. Liked me, I cannot answer this quesion. Am I really born to be gangster? OR born to be hated by my family? I also don't know why i am born to hated by them. Maybe my mother is right, I am not her daughter. I am just a lucky girl that she had picked up from a dusbin years ago. I really don't believe that I born in such a family like this. I really cannot faced anyone. I cannot faced my friend, my lover and even my family even though I really love them. Loved them a lot. All this years I have been lived in a lonely ways which only me and myself. My life is too secretive that nobody understand me. Sometime,i don't even know what am i thinking, what am i expect from myself and do i really have what i wanted. Actually, i have a lot of secret but don't know i should tell who.