my b'day

ytd is my b'day n i celebrate at home with lot of ppl.. the party is dam fun.. i tak pic, video... we all dancing n sin- ging lyk mad... we go karaoke singing.. it lyk a unforgetable b'day ever :) YEAH!!!!

i hate...

i hate u, daddy.. u did not do

wad u supposed to do T.T ...

u making me feel so sad.. as

u promised me to bring me to

somewhere on friday but u did

not make it n promised me the

nx day.. the nx day cum u still

didnt make it n promised few

days ltr but u asked some1 to

take me out.. as i was so naive

tat i believe in u... but nw no more

really sry to say tat... u used

money to say out tat u love me..

pls i didnt wan all tat.. i really

love u wif my heart but tis is wad

u repaying me.. making feeling so

pain.. dun worry i will gif u bk those

money tat u giving me.. i didnt wan

ur money..

the swear to u (h)

i swear once to myself tat i'll

love u wit my whole hear.. my

love to u lyk the shiny star n

moon in the sky.. i hope our

love will remain till when we

r old.. i scare u cannot stand

my attitude n leave me forever

when u not here with me.. i was

missed u thousand times.. nw

a days love is not lyk olden story

wad to do to make u happy??

wad to do to make u not to be

sad?? i dun wan u to be sad..

my tears rolling n my eyes is

burning but my heart still cant

stop thinking of u.. i thought tat

when i cry the pain will heal n

i'll missed u lesser but it didn't..

i need to wait till the nx day for

the sun to set to help me clear

of the cold n wind nite..

wad to do??

my dad was so gd to me but

some times i still feel tat he

is a stranger n not dare to go

near him.. but mw feel better

when he was by my side.. he

is some1 tat i waiting for years

i was very happy when my dad

is here, by my side but some

times i feel so sad coz i missed

husain dam lot.. really wish he

will be by my side now.. i can

stay ny his side n go wherever

he go.. follow closely behind him

really dunno y cant stop think

of him sia.. i noe very well tat

i wont be a gd gf but then i still

cum around, into his life n hurt

his heart.. i was the most selfish

gal sia.. but seriously i missed n

love him nw.. miss the most is

the time we in the bus bk to sku

frm malacca.. the sweet n caring

moment tat he had giving me..

tat is when he had touch my heart

miss the sweetest moment, miss

him even more.. -.-

dream cum true

finally 1 of my dream has cum true.. guess wad happening??? i finally see my daddy.. i was so happy when i 1st see him.. happy till all the words tat i wanna say is stuck in my heart.. he was totally different frm dream.. even though i say tat i hate him but in my heart i alrd forgif him.. i miss him dearly when he is not around.. my daddy is bk.. not making me wasted 12 yrs time of waiting.. but then my daddy is married with another woman nx yr which making me dam upset.. i still hope tat he n my mom will gif me a complete family n a home sweet home feeling vr upset nw ):

thanks

i really wanna say thx to u, husain.. wanna thx u for helping me finding back the thanh tat i have lost few mths ago.. im not sure tat y im wan to accept u even though i still love the some1.. i vr scared of hurting u.. but when i accept u i oso vr scared tat u gonna hurt me..i still accept u coz wadeva u do or say really touch the icy heart tat i have.. but to be honest with u, i accept u coz ur personallity is quite lyk the some1.. then i realise tat u maybe the 1 tat im finding to replace the some1.. trust me pls.. i promised i wont hurt u..

starting

i has made 1st step toward my goal ytd, 6th of nov.. hope tis will go well.. idk if my choice was rite.. n i really dun wish to get hurt anymore..i had get hurt once n it was a deep hurt i really dun wan to get hurt d 2nd times.. pls dun hurt me as i really tried my best..

wad happening??

starting of the day was so tired... i was late to sku today.. it was the 2nd time tat i had late to sku T.T when i reach my MT class, i was so shock tat no 1 was in the class accept for my MT teacher.. she was tearing some paper... she ask me to sit beside her n toking to her.. she asked me some stuff tell me to b a better person n tak care of my ownself.. i sitting in the class toking to her bout 1h.. feel dam sianzz sia..then after MT still have the stupid sec sku cum n do the toking dam boring.. i almost fall asleep.. :) after the tok we went for recess.. we continue the tok for another hour.. fricking boring.. finally, can go bk to class liao.. but those boy need to stay for the tok again..wakaka :D when we go bk to the class nth to do oso... we tak those boy UNO card to play without their permission.. at 1st is kt, kh,angel,joey, jia n me r playing but then joey n jia making kt angry so she is not playing.. so left only 5 of us.. the winner is my partner kh.. then jia cum is 2nd.. after the game i then sitting n chatting wit kh.. ltr shaan cum n ask me to help him draw smth in his hand.. when i toking yo kah.. suddenly, "kah, i wan to tok to u.." joey n jia call my partner go outside of the class... i wait for kah to cum bk.. but i wait for so long nv see her cuming bk.. i decided to went to the toilet n tak a look.. then i saw jia holding on a mop.. i thought tat they were playing.. so i cry in a conner.. feel hate joey n jia tat snatch my partner away.. went i clear my tears to went bk to class.. kt asked me wad had happen then i nv say anything.. tears lyk wanna continue to roll so i ran outside of the class.. i was at 6a outside, kt ask shaan to follow me n councel me but he dunno how to start.. so he juz standing there looking at the sky.. i feel so funny.. i then crying outside of the library.. when i saw a shadow tat look lyk kah.. i tot it was my partner but it wasnt.. it is angel.. she askd me wad happen.. " i wan my partner!!!" tat is wad i reply angel.. when i cum nbk to the class, kt tell me tat kah ran somewhere n cry..my heart feel so pain now then i realised tat kah is some1 tat more importance than manting.. i ran n look for kah.. but she is no where to be seen.. i was so scare tat i gonna lost tis partner 4eva.. i heard joey say tat my partner in the 4th floor gals' toilet.. then i quickly ran there.. she is in the 2nd room of the gal toilet.. idk wad to do, so i decided to climb to the 2nd toilet room.. i get stuck at the top coz dunno where to get down.. when i get down me n kah stay in the toilet n give each another a big hug..i tell kah the reason y im crying.. to be honest wit u i dun really understand y kah is crying.. anyway, thx to tat nitemare making me noe how importance my partner is =}

the 72nd days

the time nw is 1.11 a.m n it oso the 72 days tat i have leading my life without u.. everyday not feel lyk going to sku coz i can be vr happy with my frenz but i really dunno how to face u.. i oso seem lyk dun understand the feeling.. i feel lyk cry??? feel lyk heart broken??? or maybe other feeling when i at home i wish to see u vr much but i could not face u i sku.. i dun even dare to look at u when i was walking pass u.. i pretending tat i nv saw u.. all i could do is juz look at u frm 1 conner..

im sorry

mei, i m really sorry.. tat is wad i can say to u.. i really love u n care for u but i dunno y i keep on scolding n punishing u.. may be i dunno which is the best way to show my love to u.. but wadeva i do is juz for ur own gd..pls dun blames me.. i really dun wan u to follow my step.. being a gangster or wadeva.. ppl around u will look down on u n hate u.. i really dun wan all tat to happen to u.. i wan train u to be gd since young.. pls forgive me :-(

rain

you say you love rain but you open umbrella when it rain you say you love me but you walk away when i need you you say you need me but you will walk away when you no need me you say you wont forget me but you cannot remember me after sometime you say you miss my voice but you never answer my call is that really the way you show your love to me???